Whoaa baby!

I'm back! xD It's been like a little bit over a month since I've blogged and when I look back on my old posts, I feel ashamed >< Okay fine, not ashamed but more embarrassed? I've written some REALLY weird things in a couple months back but it's interesting at the same time ;D Mistakes & stories is what makes a person grow and slowly, everyone will.. someday. So, what happened so far? School started and I DO miss my Balboaa buddies :( School's boring and there are only friends that can make it better! For now, everyone should just hold on tight, pick your friends right and with that, you'll do fine in life.
P.S.: Anna, don't worry about the problem with that person(;

Birthday.

Whoo! Finally, my 15th birthday(: So.. I've been on this earth for 15 years or is it 16, counting that year when I was first born? Well, anyways, I myself never gave much about my birthday, or so that's what I've been thinking so far. So, let's start from the beginning..

So, of course, when one's birthday comes, everyone wishes you a happy birthday and you, of course, thank them for these wishes. Guess what happened to me on Facebook? Floods of wishes came and I was very very grateful for those wishes. I thought that my birthday was gonna be a drag since I had to go to Chinese school but I was staying optimistic and knew it was gonna be good in it's own way. Honestly, throughout the day, I did forget that it was my birthday since well, I have a crappy memory anyways and I was preoccupied by trying to protect myself from getting hit from Anna & Jenny. Those two are soo abusive >.> xD

After Chinese school, me and my dad went to pick up my mom, and none of them notice anything, so I decided to keep my mouth shut. "Oh wells, I've had other birthdays and plenty more to come. Why bother my parents? I don't mind. At all." Guess I was wrong. So, the whole night, I stayed quiet and was getting pissed off at my mom since she was yelling at me for no fucking reason. It was only till my brother, Andy, came out and asked me, "Hey, isn't it your birthday?" Not knowing what would happened, I answered, "Yeaah..? So?" My parents didn't even notice, at ALL, that it was my birthday. Their reactions?

Andy: "Hey, do you guys know what day is it?"
Dad: "It's Saturday.. duh."
Andy: "What else is it? It's the 25th.."
Dad: "Yeah, I know, and tomorrow's the 26th. So?"
Andy: "Don't you remember? It's -points head over at my direction- birthday.."
Dad: "Oh oops! I forgot!"
Mom: "Oh crap! I forgot too!"

What great reactions, hm? I didn't even know that this was gonna send me to 30 minutes or maybe a little bit more of crying. I really thought honestly that I really didn't give a damn anymore but I guess deep inside, I really wanted my parents to say, "Happy birthday honey. Another year older, another year wiser(:" This probably shows the relationship of my parents and me; maybe it is a relationship filled with hate.. Haiz, how depressing, happening on my birthday.. ><

But again, thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday & I really am truly grateful for everyone's wishes. <3

Annoyance

Maybe it's just me when I'm on my monthly menstruation cycle but certain things that I can usually take and don't give a damn just annoys me even more. Now, which annoyance shall I start with first?

I'll start with my dad; usually, we're okay with each other but these days, he's just getting on my damn nerves D:< Like today, I went out for 2 hours cuz me, Jason and Emily were in JT looking for BoA posters for Sunday and then I was supposed to be home by 3 since I had to accompany my mom to doctor's since she strained a muscle, so then around 2, my dad starting calling and he was like, "When are you coming home?" And then when I WAS going home, he kept on calling me and started bitching at me all of a sudden >.> I ended up having to run home and then he was standing outside our place and then he was bitching at me, saying how like how I go out "to play" too much and then how I can't divide up my time precisely. A; I don't even go out that much! For the past two weeks, I ONLY went out twice; both times to go to the doctor's with my mom and then it WAS only just 2 hours >.> B; My dad has an issuse of being early and my mom's appointment was at 3:30, it doesn't even take that long to get to my mom's work place to the doctor's. You know, my dad used to wake me up at 6:30 when school started at like 8:05, it DOES NOT take me that freaking long to get ready and walk out to the bart station. Once, I overslept and woke up at 7:20, and I STILL made it at school with time to spare >< Geez, and then when I was trying to take a nap at first, he comes outta nowhere and starts asking me things when I'm not even that aware of what's happening >.>

Annoyance number two; my mom. I am shocked and appalled on how I can be related to such a person. When we're out in public, she acts all "innocent" and talks in a soft voice so she seems like a "gentle" person. And then when we get home, dude, you would be SOO amazed on how fast she freaking changes. And she has the rudest mouth you can ever know. My mom just like insulting and talking shit about people behind their back, sometimes even in FRONT of people's faces, eg ME! D:< It's freaking ridiculous at times >.> My mom, somehow, can be in pain always. Like I said earlier, I took my mom to the doctor's to check up on her wrist cuz she pulled a muscle. But then, she doesn't understand the concept of "therapy". She believes that if she just gets medicine for it, it'll heal but is that freaking possible? If that WAS possible, no one would ever have any injuries or nothing. Geez.

I am just.. UGHS! How do I even know people like this?! D:< I really do need some time away from my parents, such stubborn and believe that they're always right >.> Not cool, at all. :P

Another sleepless night

I know and understand that there are people in the world that do have difficulties fall asleep or staying asleep and they have medicine for that. Some, they decide to take those medicine and risk getting addicted while others decide not to take those medicines and risk staying up all night, tossing and turning, unable to sleep. World, I am one of those people xD

Weirdly however, I don't feel like I have a problem that causes me to unable to turn to the face of 'sleep' but it's more as life's distraction which causes me to stay up later and later and later and later.. You get my point right?(: Anyways, what are some good ways that could help me and those other people out there that are unable to fall asleep? And I hope that no one that I know gets this stupid curse that I have ><

Late night posting..

Or is it early morning posting? Lols, I just noticed that xD Anyways, like I said in the post before, my insomnia, blah blah blah. I find it kinda fun staying up/waking up so early xD The bad things are that you wake up incredibly late & you get massive headaches, like I am right now ):

During these times where everyone is sleeping and all is quiet in where ever you live, you get a chance to think about stuff that you've been meaning to do or you realized and want to go in more depth.

Thinking right now just gives me headaches xD But it does help to think in this quietness (:

PS: Honestly, one reason I can't really sleep is cuz I'm still a bit spooked from Drag Me to Hell. Next time, no more scary movies pleasee~ (:

Insomniaa.

Yes yes, I know I'm supposed to be sleeping right now, even if it it summer, but dude. I really can't sleep! (My whole post got deleted since I used the stinking arrow key thingys, so I'll try and write as much as I did earlier.. a couple of minutes ago.)

Is it because I'm nervous about something? No, my summer's pretty boring right now, if you ask me. The biggest event so far? Going to the movies and hanging out with the 2 Emilys (Emmy Zoo& Emmy Pee;)), Jason (Lammy:D), and a WHOLEE bunch of guys from Balboaa. So that doesn't make me nervous.

What about.. is it because I'm thinking of a certain someone? Nope! I mean, I AM thinking about different people from Bal that I'm gonna miss after the summer's over since I'm transferring to Wash (did I fail to mention this in my earlier postings? Meh, I probably did. So now you know :)). But other than those people.. no one importante that would make me unable to sleep.

It's so fricking weird. This always happens to me during some sort of break (if it's a 3-day weekend, I don't stay up THIS late but if it's like Spring Break, dude, it is NOT pretty.) By now, I understand that whenever a break comes, I end up staying up later and later and later until I don't sleep for HOURS and end up just staying up for the next day, exhausting myself. Now, I remember learning about how during our teenage years, we're supposed to have at LEAST 8 hours of sleep (is that right, Emily?) and I KNOW it was practically impossible for me to get that much sleep during the school year but now the school year's over; why can't I sleep?! What the [s]fuck[/s] frick is happening to me?! Dude, I am gonna be one ugly chick by the end of the summer if I continue with this habit! xD

Now, I know this is something really stupid to blog about, but hey. Better out than in, right? So, without sleeping for so long, I know some stuff that I'm writing about right now may be incoherent (you should see how many times I keep on spelling things wrong and having to keep on pressing backspace for every little thing; that suddenly reminded me of Madonna's Caught Up xD) but if this whole post was coherent to you, then kudos to me ;) Now, don't be an idiot like Amy right here and have your 8+ hours of sleep.

PS: I finally blogged :D Happy, Emily? ..even though this probably won't make sense and all

The Day a Little Girl Made Sushi..

Okay fine, I'm not a little girl xD There wasn't nothing much to do today after I came home.

School was okay; I had a quiz in Physics which I knew I bombed (one question was 12.5 points off D:) The highlight of my day? It HAS to be the Celebration of Nations assembly; it was pretty awesome actually. My favorite part? It's between the dude that played the piano (I like a man that can play the piano xD He played All My Life by KCi & Jojo; Fur Elise by some classical dude and then when he was playing My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion, he "messed" up and went, "SHIT!" and then they closed the curtains on him >.>), the Chinese club (there was a group of guys dancing to a Taiwanese song and then another group of girls that danced to a Taiwanese song, I thinketh and then the last song, they combined and danced together. It was cute!), and the Polynesian Club (Dude, call me a pervert or whatever. How can you resist 20+ TOPLESS guys that are dancing right in front of you? Well, not in front in front since the freshies has to sit ALL the way at the balcony >.>)

Anyways, since I was bored at home, with nothing to do, I decided to make me some sushi! :) So I had imitation krab meat (yes, krab with a 'k' :)), mayonnaise, (ALOT of ) chili powder, eggs and duh, rice xD So earlier in the week, probably Tuesday or so? I made sushi too; yes, I am REALLY that bored at home xD And the rice kept on sticking to my hand no matter what I tried to do. So then today, I decided to use some gloves to avoid the sticking.. I think it made matters WORSE! And then I kept on eating the rice off of the glove, it still tasted pretty good.. but the rubber.. made me feel weird xD When I was rolling my last roll, I noticed I skimped on the rice and krab meat mixture.. TOO much. I thought, "might as well just put everything in." And then when I did and TRIED to roll it.. I made a fai po (fatty pants) sushi roll. WOMG, you shouldaa seen it! But the funny thing is that.. I think that was my BEST roll xD But I won't taste it till tomorrow, saving it for lunch :)

-be back with pictures of my fai po sushi roll :)-

Boredom

There's nothing to do and no one to talk to. Has my life really gone down the drains or this indicating that the friendships that I've had are slowly melting away? How sad, how depressing.. sometimes, I really wonder; what is going on? It's nothing I can't control of course, since how I'm not God or whatever. Maybe it is better to do some reading when I'm bored. :) Reading; Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe (it's kinda confusing but I've only read the first couplah chapters) & Identical. Go read someday kid. Be a smart kid and not waste your life like other idiots out there.

Back.. forreals :)

Womg, I think I'm gonna get my ass kicked by Emmy or something since I've been afb (away from blog :D) for such a long time. It's time I've taken priority of things I needa in my life and THIS is.. pretty high up on my list of getting things done.. ^^ So, it's been a while and I feel all awkward again xD But, hey, it's a good habit about getting things out right? :) So, from now on.. Imaaa start blogging again ^^ I'm too tired to do anything right now.. so tomorrow it is :) Buh-byes~ ;)

Long live friends.

In life, you will always meet someone no matter where you go. When you stay long enough and get to know the people around you enough, you then become friends, usually. :D

For me, friends have been a really big part of my life and I've decided to to dedicate somthing to the people in my life. Now, the order of the people I list isn't important, it's all about the sincerity and the thought and well, it's gonna sound a bit weird xD

So from now on, I'll make myself sit down and write a little or a lot about my friends, the old and the new. And sometimes, it'll be really long and I'll only write about one person and other days, I'll write about multiple people an make them really short. It'll all depend on my mood :D

Hence starts my dedication to my buddies ^^

Damn you, freaking daylight savings.

Daylight savings.. only such thing is used in the US of A. Why are we always the odd ones out? First with the metric system and now with this? Why can't the United States just use the same thing as the other people around the world? It'll be so much easier anyways -.-" But nooo, we hafta use the freaking blah blah system. Stupid Americans.. D:<

Oh crap.

I MEANT to blog yesterday but right after I got home.. it felt like someone drugged me and knocked me out for Lala land. But Today! Today was fun ^^ Why? It was my twinnie's birthday! :D

And it was totally awesome at school since I went on a field trip! I was honestly kinda scared since it was a new school and I didn't know who I was going to talk to or hang out with out but luckily, this guy friend that me and Amy always eat lunch with was in the same English class as me, so we talked and hanged out with other people such as Elaine Guan (that girl was hecka hyper xD), Jonathan (bipolar boy! I'm not kidding.) and other people ^^

So for my field trip, I went to go watch this play called A Girl's War and it was really good actually. It was about this girl named Anna who's from Armenia that left since she couldn't stand the life there and went to NY, hence becoming a model. But then one day Anna gets this call from her mom who lives in Karabah(?) saying that her brother got shot by these Azerbaijani people and so Anna goes back to Karabah. There, she and her mom fight alot since Anna denies that she's part of the war since she's doesn't claim herself as Armenian but then her mom says that it's in her blood. One day, this dude named Ilyasis(?)(the person who played him looked JUST like Robert Pattison but he was tanner, had a mustache and was Afghanistan-born) whose a childhood friend that knew Anna's brother comes back, stating that he deserted the Azerbaijani army and like Anna and Ilyasis fall in love. (I'm sure for a fact that they both saw each other naked since there was a bath scene where she's "showering" and he walks in on her and then later he's showering and she's helping him). Since the mom doesn't like Azerbaijani people since they're so-called enemies, she doesn't like Ilyasis since he's Azerbaijani and then nearing the end of the play, we find out that he was planting mines around the village, killing around 4 people or so and leaving some kids as orphans. There was a scene where Anna's ex from NY whose a photographer and the ex's assistant Tito, are getting so tense that they both get killed since Ilyasis is trying to escape since the mom comes in (the mom's in the Armenian army.. somehow xD) and founds out that he was planting mines. He and Tito get stabbed and both die and I swear.. I was literally screaming, "NOO! TITO DIED! D:<" Tito was gay in the play, btws xD


After the play, it was time for us to celebrate Amy's birthday! Me, Anna, Amy and Trevor (who looks so much like Gordon xD) went to Sushi Rock where we had udon while Trevor had sushi -.-" After a little while, Gordon and Patrick (I think that was his name :D) came and then after we were done eating dinner, me, Gordon, Trevor and Patrick went to go buy Amy a little piece of cake while Anna dragged Amy back to Helen Wills to distract her :D When we got the cake and then went back to Helen Wills, we had all the guys put on the candles onto the cake (it was mango cheesecake xD) and then when we were done, Amy came out of the tennis courts (we held her hostage there xD) and then we sang Happy Birthday to her :D After that, I told Amy to try some of the cake and since I was holding the cake, I aimed for her face.. but I missed kinda xD And then I started running after Amy cuz I was holding onto the cake and the cake fell onto my hands, I caked her! :D And then everyone started caking her and then I went for Raymond. After that, there was alot of stickyness and alot of falling for me xD

All in all, it was a great day ^^ Until when I came home and my mom was kinda yelling at me for coming home late.. but w/e, it was worth it :D It was fun! Happy birthday Hunny bunny! <3

Back to business.

I should REALLY stop neglecting my little blog right, shouldn't I? I'll be like Emily :D Blogging everyday. My new goal of the year.. blogging everyday :D

Omigosh!

Hahas, it's most Valentine's Day, or maybe it is whereever you live xD Love is in the air -prances around, throwing flower petals- I dunno about you.. but I feel a bit jealous of all the couples walking around ><>

Missed Out..

When I said I was going to commit to this, which I meant blogging everyday no matter what, everything somehow slipped out of my hands and here I am.. weeks and weeks gone! T.T Time to start blogging again! xD

Recaps of what has happened during this temporary hiatus..
-DDR practice at Emily's house; I phailed ^^
-Chinese New Year Parade; we didn't actually watch the parade but it was fun hanging out with guys xD Guys are an interesting species aren't they? :D My phone got scratched though ><>
-DDR practice & the beginning of the Emily-Amy So Hot era; this time just me and Emily, Amy Chang joined and we were eating pho ^^ After playing DDR a while, me and Emily started our So Hot practices. "Laggy sluts -rofls-"

Time to commit myself to my priorities!

True or just a fake?

Have you ever wondered if you were born into the wrong family? Born into a family where you think you don't belong, into a place that's just so cold, a place where you can't turn to anyone for help, no matter how much you need it? For me, family has always been a sensitive topic and the cause of that may not make sense but to me.. it just does. During multiple times in my life, if not more frequently, I think I was born into the wrong family. I have absolutely no idea how or when this thought passed through my mind but it has and I think it's pretty pathetic. Doesn't this seem ironic? How I think I'm the odd one out when I'm supposed to be smothered with love since I'm the youngest? Ughs, I wish my life was half that way; you can say I never felt any love before. And maybe, it's true. I've always thought I was a strong kid and I don't need anyone since I never really experienced the warmness of a family but sometimes, it gets so hard.. I've always imagined.. if I was born into a different family, what would be the same? What would be the difference? Would I be happier?..

GAHHH!

Yes, gah. My brain feels that way and so I'll explain it that way. School is just too.. exhausting and too troublesome. But we hafta get our edumacation somewhere.. >.> But I wish somewhere more fun.. please? ^^

Too many questions.. too little answers

This year, it seems so different, everything doesn't seem right. What happened to the Chinese New Years I've had as a child? That feeling, that spark, that happiness, it's gone. What happened to it? Why did it suddenly leave? It seems as if.. all of the world's happiness has gone missing or maybe, it was given to everyone except for my family.. Maybe, this marks something significant for the future.. who knows?

Happy Lunar New Year!

Yippie! It's the time of year that we Asian loves (I sound repetitive -.-"). ANYWAYS, remember to have fun and get alotta money! xD

Possibly..

I was wondering.. wondering if you be cheated by your heart. I was never really good in the love department. So, before, I blamed myself for a lack of experience, being too naive in the area. But now, since I'm older and gone through more, I had started to think about if I just wasn't at the age of thinking of guys that way but then I mentally slapped myself for thinking that way. Slowly but surely, I can up with different answers on why I don't do good in the love department. And then it hit me, like a fat kid getting hit in the face with a dodgeball. Anyways, my theory was that I was -getting tired- gonna finish later xD-

Thoughts, Sights & Sounds I

In life, there are battles you can choose to fight or avoid while there are other battles are that inevitable and you have to fight them. Same with anything else in life, maybe.. it's easier if..

Imagine this, you start the day off with a bad hair day and once you walk out of the house, it starts pouring rain and then you realize that you neglected to bring an umbrella. Deciding to go back into your house and risk being late, you dig inside your pockets to fish out your keys from whatever's in your pocket (You have a really big pocket.. and I have no idea what you've been putting in there). After a couple minutes, you then realize again that you left your keys on the kitchen table after you were arguing with your mom deciding on what your curfew would be since it was a Friday. Frustrated, you then take a glimpse at your watch (don't worry, your watch is waterproof) and then you noticed that it's way passed the time to start school. You rush to school and you get a whole week of detention because you missed all your morning classes due to an accident on the bus. Throughout the whole day, in wet clothes, you get pushed, kicked, hit, and all sorts of horrible things. You go home and then you decide to kill yourself. The End.. NOT! -Clicks "pause" on the remote-

Anyways, I find it both funny and ironic how you think you're having the worst day of your life and then when you get home and relax and think about your day, it hits you smack dab in the face. You then realize that you're not the only one out there having a crappy day.

Sometimes I wonder, how come there are people out there that only care for themselves and not other people too? I mean, I've been through all and so has my close friends but we don't really talk about it or we don't show our true colors so we don't freak out people , but other "friends" that I/we have, I don't think that they have that little thing inside their brain that we have.

They can only think for themselves, care for themselves, and do everything for their own benefit. I understand that you have to care for yourself and stop putting people before yourself, but I just can't understand people putting themselves before other people, that's just so shallow and selfish. How can people get so fake and shallow so fast? Maybe this is the way that the world is becoming; full of shallow and fake people. Maybe we should get them to try thinking of everyone once in a while and stop thinking of themselves and maybe, just maybe, the world might be a way better place.

PS: Have a fun weekend and great Lunar New Year on Monday :)

Rainy Days

During those rainy days, don't you feel a bit nostalgic? Well.. I don't know about you guys out there but I feel that way. Rainy days make me to think back on the happy and sad memories of middle school. You're probably thinking, "You just graduated middle school! You miss it already?!" Well.. yeah, I do miss my 3 years of middle school. During a human's life, in my opinion at least, the middle school and high school years are the most significant. At these ages, you start to lose your innocent and you don't think the same way you've been thinking for the past 10 or so years. Middle school has taught me many lessons, shown me many things I had never seen before and gave me the best things in my life, my friends. So maybe on the next rainy day, your mind may drift back to your more significant years..

"Nostalgia; noun - a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time" -dictionary.com

Almost Chinese/Lunar New Years

Ah.. the time of year that us Asians love has come again~ It's Lunar New Years next Monday~ (: It means red envelopes (ka-ching, ka-ching, do I hear the money train? xD), big reunions (don't you love those, especially if you have a enormous family, of course), and of course, lots of love. The tradition of Lunar New Years have been passed down from one generation to the next and guess what? Us kids are totally excited ESPECIALLY because of we don't have to give ANYTHING, we just receive, receive, and receive more~! Anyways, everyone out there who celebrates Lunar New Years with their family or with their friends, have fun and remember, get alotta money! (Just kidding, of course xD)

Beginner skills (:

Hello there (: Welcome and.. this is just the happy beginning of many other posts :D So stick around if you want and maybe, just maybe, you'll get a glimpse into my awesome brain.. jkays ;)