Too many questions.. too little answers

This year, it seems so different, everything doesn't seem right. What happened to the Chinese New Years I've had as a child? That feeling, that spark, that happiness, it's gone. What happened to it? Why did it suddenly leave? It seems as if.. all of the world's happiness has gone missing or maybe, it was given to everyone except for my family.. Maybe, this marks something significant for the future.. who knows?